Shadowed Love(Chapter 3)- The Confession

SHADOWED LOVE

Chapter 3- Confession

Shalini was now in confusion about what to say to Sumit. She was not prepared to face him. She herself didn’t know whether she loved him or it was just a mutual attraction because of all the blank phones calls, letter and the past memories. Shalini was totally messed up inside her mind. All she was thinking was of Sumit and what did she felt for him. She was searching in her mind to find an answer and slept with all the thoughts on standby.

Next morning she didn’t have the guts to face anybody from her gang especially Sumit. It was not about the guts she had to face him or not but she wanted to be sure enough to answer him properly about her feelings. She wanted to be prepared with every answer Sumit might be having.

After having her breakfast she decided that she will not go to college today and rather stay at home and think about the solution or what she really wanted in her life with Sumit as context. Firstly she wanted to know the reason of so much confusion. 

She never felt this before ever in her life that too so strong for someone. May be its illusion because of the circumstances or may be it is her emotions shouting at her, throwing words to nurture them into thoughts.

After thinking about an hour she felt exhausted and kind of bored, so, she thought a stroll in garden with morning fresh air and some music could help her.

It was 9 in the morning and the December mornings are quite cold so she took her jacket and her earphones after wearing her shoes and headed towards the park near her house.

She was feeling better now. No tension. No thoughts of some guy she thoughts she knew or anything or any change in her life. She felt revived from all the mess.

Just then a hand touched her shoulder, and she suddenly stopped and turned.

“Hey Miss Shalini Talwar!” said Daksh.

“Long time no see, where have you been these days?” Daksh asked.

“Oh it’s you Daksh! Well yeah long time. You know nah college and then work and hanging out with friends. Just don’t get that time now.” Said Shalini.

“I can understand Shalini, don’t worry.” He said giving a warm comforting smile.

Then he asked “so what brings you here today that too on a so cold morning?”

To which Shalini replied “actually I was tensed and confused about a decision so I thought going on a walk won’t do any harm”

“So what happened, you can share with me?” asked Daksh

Shalini then shared everything with Daksh. Daksh was her close friend at time of her school but after schooling, but after that college came up and their chats had been restricted to messages on phone. She shared the scene with the calls and the letter and her new gang she made in college. She shared how once Sumit had gone under so much trouble just to bring her lab file from her house to college in rainy weather. She shared and remembered how many small things Sumit have been trying to do for Shalini from the starting of their friendship. Just like, how he stood up for her campaigning as the youth new leader but she lost it. She remembered that whenever she felt low, he would sing her a song playing on his guitar, she remembered how he usually takes care of every relationship he makes and how firm he is about keeping them, she got remember his nature, his smile, and his strong will to make everybody happy. She told everything to Daksh.

Daksh asked Shalini “ST just tell me one thing!”

Shalini didn’t like the ‘ST’ tag because it was the initials of her name, may be it was because of she thought people will then call her scheduled tribe. She felt weird about ‘ST’ but still tried to maintain a smile for a friend who was helping her out and said 

“Yeah say Daksh.”

”Do you feel something for him?” he asked.

“I just don’t know Daksh.” She said.

“Well he seems to be a really nice guy for anybody and every girl out there but coming to a solution or a decision just like that while thinking would be waste of time and emotions if you don’t feel anything for him.” He suggested

“Umm... what do you think? Do I feel anything for him?” asked Shalini confusingly.

“Well I don’t know whether you feel about this guy or not but I know one thing that you are a smart girl so don’t rush things, just think lightly. You will figure out everything by the end of the day.” He said with a smile assuring enough to help her.

“Thanks a lot Daksh. That was a lot of help. It really means a lot to me.” Shalini said smiling.

“No issues Shalini. What are friends for in the end.” He said.

His phone ringed.

“Well I think I need to go. I will catch you later. It was nice to meet you. And don’t worry everything would turn out to be fine.” He said and left.

Shalini was now kind of sorted out in her mind. She went back to her house, and thought very calmly about everything. She made notes of everything, every little detail she knew.

At night finally Shalini was prepared for anything that comes up the next day. And she went to bed with a wide smile and happy heart to be coming up with the answer finally.

The next day she went to college and straight away she went to Sumit to confront him and respond to his letter.

“Hi Shalini. Why didn’t you come yesterday?” asked Sumit.

“Well actually I was busy with something so I couldn’t come.” Shalini responded.

Shalini continued.

“Umm… Sumit I saw your bouquet and your letter and I wanted to talk to you about that.” She said.

“Umm yeah Shalini please don’t take it in a wrong way.” He went nervous.

He continued.

“actually I wanted to say it directly but I heard you shouting at phone and thought it wasn’t the right time to come up to you at that time of night and saying all those things.” He said.

“What! What shouting?” Shalini asked.

“You seemed disturbed by the voice I could hear from outside. You said something about stalker and police.” He said.

A gulp went down Shalini’s throat. Her mind was raging with numerous thoughts now. But Sumit disturbed in between by asking “so what did you want me to tell or I should ask what your reply is?”